Wrapping Up If It Is To Be, It Is Up To Me

One of the nice things writing my series, about taking charge of my health, has done for me has put me in a frame of mind to live in a way that is healthy and taking me in a direction that will help me heal from what is going on. At this point in time, I’m not completely healed, but I have made a lot of progress since that first article where I really felt like I was dying.

I remember about a month ago… I felt like I was going to die. I walked up a couple of stairs and had to stop. I was very close to calling a paramedic and having them come get me. Instead, I took a few minutes and caught my breath and then finished the stairs.

It’s interesting what goes through your mind when you feel like you are going to die. I immediately thought of my daughters. I thought about making sure I had a living will so they would be taken care of if I die. I thought about everything that had happened to my life up until that point. This was VERY recent.

I’m continuing to learn as I make changes in my life. I’ve learned to love organic foods, salads. I love making organic eggs with cocunut oil, olive oil, and salt and pepper. It’s yummy. I appreciate a good salmon now, also with cocunut oil and olive oil with salt and pepper. I’m learning more about digestion and what some of the problems can be with it.

I’ve improved in many of my symptoms. I still have more work to do and challenges to solve. I still have more undigested food than I would like in my poop. I’m on my second day of taking diatomaceous earth. This substance really helps clean out your colon like a sweeper with a scrubber. It may even help remove unwanted parasites from my insides if I have them. This morning, I did quite a lot of emptying of my colon from poop and the poop looked pretty good – long and S shaped.

I would never have thought I would become a student of poop. It’s amazing what sickness and pain will do to a person though. I’m driven to figure this condition of mine out and it largely seems that I must live a very healthy lifestyle to heal my insides and get over this. I’m NOT INTERESTED in going under any more surgeries…

I’m wrapping up this series of articles because I am now in the habit of preparing my food, eating healthy, and focusing on my health. This past Saturday, I went to play basketball outside! It was sunny, 50 degrees, and I just took off my shirt and played. I loved it! I’ll write more as I continue to learn about my health in the hopes that it might help any who have been struggling. So far, the answer has been discipline, healthy eating, taking supplements, and focusing on gratitude.

Speaking of gratitude, I’ve been focusing on gratitude for my self. I’m grateful to be me. I’m grateful for the talents and gifts I have. I’m grateful for the resolve to fight through and overcome my challenges. I’m grateful for my two amazing daughters. I’m grateful for my condo and cats. I’m grateful that I have the opportunities at work that I do. I’m grateful to be alive and continue to do the best I can to improve myself and contribute to this world.

If It Is To Be, It Is Up To Me (Part 6) – What It Takes To Be Healthy

Well this journey of regaining my health is an interesting one. One of the biggest things I’ve learned about it is that right now, if I sneak even a little bit of non organic, or non natural food, my body gets very angry with me. I tested this theory by trying some veggie straws a couple days ago. It did not sit well with my body :). Yesterday, I started 100% organic and natural foods. Before I’d say I was doing about 80%, but it’s clear only 100% will suffice.

I can feel my body getting cleaned out… I’m not sure how much more there is to clean out. It might take a few more months or a few more years. Regardless of how much time it takes, this new lifestyle of mine is now permanent. I now eat leafy green vegetables, organic everything, and stay away from boxed, bagged, and processed foods.

In early December of last year, my body really got slammed. In the last 3 weeks since I’ve started eating healthy, I can look at my symptoms and see things starting to improve. Here’s a list of the symptoms I’ve been having:

  • Fatigue
  • Nausea
  • Lack of appetite
  • Abdominal pain
  • Constipation
  • Brain fog (difficulty concentrating)
  • Insomnia
  • Anxiety
  • Bloating
  • High blood pressure
  • Inability to go up stairs or exert myself

Each one of these symptoms has slowly started to improve. Getting sleep, especially, is a big one. I purchased a big dark curtain for my room so that I could have it be darker. There appears to be a rhythm to sleep and keeping it dark seems to aid in the sleep process.

I’ve been following several natural, holistic doctor’s and following their advice. It’s interesting because these doctor’s talk about how if you live a fully clean and natural lifestyle, make sure your body is functioning properly, that things like even cancer can be cured.

I’m not sure what I believe at this point, but I do see that putting healing foods in my body and practicing healthy habits like meditation, prayer, gratitude, journaling, getting sun daily, and exercise are all helping in my recovery.

I’m not sure where this health road will lead me, but I’m happy with the progress that’s been happening so far. I figure if I eat 100% clean, organic, exercise, keep my mind right, get all the nutrients and sun I need, that if I still don’t get better, I can accept that. I have a feeling that I will get better though :)

To get healthy, take charge of your life, food, health, and well being. Don’t look for someone to do it for you. You must be your own advocate and participate in your own rescue. Looking forward to the continuing weeks as I heal.

If It Is To Be, It Is Up To Me (Part 5) – Progress!

Well hey! It’s certainly been a wild ride on this journey of getting my health back. For 8 months, I’ve been for all intensive purposes, dead. Laying in bed, having a hard time moving, and not doing much at all. However, with my changes in eating, focusing on meditation and being mindful of my thoughts, along with really giving it my all and pushing myself a little, I am making progress.

Today, I played basketball at the gym – just shot around by myself, but did it for about 20 minutes. Before that, I lifted weights! They weren’t heavy, but I did a whole body weight workout that included pull ups! Granted, I can’t do that many pull ups right now, but I felt like a normal human being again, like my old self.

My favorite foods right now are:

  • Pumpkin seeds – they have no sugar, taste good, and have a lot of nutrients.
  • Greens – Kale, Collared Greens, Green Onions, Celery, Cilantro. I make salads with these and pumpkin seeds now and I feel alive when I eat them.
  • Organic Oats – I cook these every day and put a little pure maple syrup on them. It’s good!
  • Bone Broth – I have tons of bone broth that I drink regularly.
  • Sweet Potatoes – I love sweet potatoes and so do my daughters. I can’t eat too many though as they have sugar.
  • Brown Rice – I love making brown rice :) It has very little sugar.
  • Nutritional Shake and supplements – I love this shake and drinking it with my supplements.
  • Cocunut Milk – I love this milk and feel good after drinking it. It has no sugar.
  • Avocados – I love these and can eat them all day.
  • Soup with veggies – I put carrots, celery, and other veggies in my fridge in a soup with water and bone broth. Cook for 15 minutes and eat. It doesn’t taste amazing, but it’s good enough :)
  • Cocunut Chips – My favorite snack now. They are only made from potatoes, cocunut oil, and sea salt.

I am learning to love healthy foods and am now learning about nutrition composition in foods, in particular Disaccharides – this is where I have a problem according to my biopsy of my stomach and small intestine. The 3 main ones are lactose, sucrose, and maltose. So I look at every food’s nutrition composition now before eating it.

The biggest change is cutting out all dairy and soy. The only wheat I have is in one of my fiber supplements. I imagine as time goes on, I will be moving more toward a vegan diet.

I’m happy right now, still have a ways to go to heal, but am satisfied with the progress I’ve made to this point. Looking forward to continuing this journey of my health.

Here’s a video I did for my YouTube subscribers talking about the progress being made on my health:

If It Is To Be, It Is Up To Me (Part 4)

This journey of understanding my health continues. I’ve heard many different theories from people as well as having my gastroenterology report. This situation with my health is very interesting because a doctor cannot go in and perform a surgery to fix this or give me a cure (pill). I am on my own (with the help of others and information available) to solve this and I do not know the solution currently… It could be a combination of time and discipline that ultimately heals me.

My official diagnosis is “Disaccharidase Deficiency”. Essentially, I have trouble digesting certain things. That statement isn’t a whole lot of help in and of itself, but it does give me a lot to research and test on my own. First, I must understand all foods that have Disaccharide’s. And if there are foods I can eat that don’t contain them, I need to start with those and eliminate any foods that have them so I can see if I feel better after doing that.

Next, I need to slowly introduce foods that may be a problem. For instance, yesterday I tried some Almond Milk and my body didn’t like that at all. I’ve spent the last 18 hours rocking and reeling from feeling nauseous and not sleeping. There is a STEEP price that I pay right now when I take in a food that my body doesn’t easily tolerate (or eat in a way that irritates my stomach and intestines). This morning, I had some organic oats and my nutrition shake and my body feels largely unaffected by that. Woo hoo, foods I can eat it appears :)

I’ve also been taking nutritional supplements – a lot of them over the last 10 days. I’m sure how I’m taking those could also be causing an issue. My goal here is to always eat a little bit of organic oats to get something in my stomach, and then to down my supplements. We’ll see if this has a positive affect on how I feel – or at least mitigates symptoms I’ve been having.

Last night was a tough one. I slept from 11 PM to 1 AM, and then was up from 1 AM to 5:45 AM. Insomnia at its finest :) But I refused to take any medication and just let it run its course. I did finally sleep for another couple hours, which I desperately needed. I can’t keep running off of adrenal’s (something I also need to research).

I’m going to beat this, whatever the hell it is and pass the knowledge I gain along. Rwwwwwaarrrrrrrrrrrrrrrr!

If It Is To Be, It Is Up To Me (Part 3)

Phew, last night was… intense. It’s the most nauseous I’ve felt since starting this journey of detoxing. I’m on day 7 of my detox now and for the next two days will be consuming bone broth, vegetables, and my nutrition shake with supplements. This next week is going to be intense I have a feeling.

I was able to do a light workout with my daughters yesterday and that was great. I was very happy to have the energy to do a few pushups and jog slowly around the condo. That was super fun! We ran around all the rooms for about 7 minutes like a train.

Today is going to be a day of rest. I’m going to drink broth, rest, drink water, and allow my body to rest and heal. Last night was not a very good night’s sleep. After getting two hours straight, I was up, off and on many different times.

Right now, I feel jittery, hot (with no fever), fatigued, nauseous, and have insomnia. This is simply the truth. I do believe that at some point, I will overcome all of this, but it’s very disruptive right now. Looking back, I may have eased into this more instead of going full all-in detox.

If It Is To Be, It Is Up To Me (Part 2)

I made it through the week at work! There was one day I missed work due to really high blood pressure, but that was Tuesday, and I felt a bit better after that. I’m continuing to eat pretty healthy and take my nutritional supplements. Time will tell if this works :)

I’m noticing that stress is a big part of my life – that and anxiety. I’m really trying to get these under control. I am really hard on myself and I also put a lot of pressure on myself to perform and meet expectations. I also worry about supporting my daughters and paying my mortgage. Just stuff to work on :)

Here was what I did yesterday:

  • Eating: 9/10 (Mostly vegetables and shake mix/supplements
  • Meditation: 10 minutes
  • Plank: 20 seconds
  • Pushups: 5
  • Jog the Length of My Condo: 2 times
  • Lunges (no weights): 12
  • Squats (no weights): 10
  • Calf raises (no weights): 20
  • Walk outside: 0 minutes

Here is what I did today:

  • Eating: 9/10 (Mostly vegetables and shake mix/supplements
  • Meditation: 0 minutes (have my daughters, meditation a bit harder :))
  • Plank: 0 seconds
  • Pushups: 0
  • Jog the Length of My Condo: 0 times
  • Lunges (no weights): 0
  • Squats (no weights): 11
  • Calf raises (no weights): 30
  • Walk outside: 20 minutes (3 laps around Ancestry building)

I really enjoyed my walk outside today. I got some sun and did 3 laps around the Ancestry building. I’m still having some major digestive challenges (bloating and discomfort), but working the best I can through them…

If It Is To Be, It Is Up To Me (Part 1)

I have a thermometer and a blood pressure machine in my condo. Doctor’s and hospitals carry these. Whenever you go into a hospital, they will ask you about your symptoms and then take your weight, blood pressure, and temperature. These are all things you can do at home…

With the issues I’ve got going on, another ER or Doctor visit isn’t going to do any good. I must now do all I can to get myself healthy. I must exercise – even if I don’t feel like it or it hurts. I must start small and then go further and further. This is how I will get my health back – through healthy eating and pushing myself just a bit more each and every day.

Here is day 1:

  • Eating: 9/10 (Mostly vegetables and shake mix/supplements
  • Meditation: 10 minutes
  • Plank: 20 seconds
  • Pushups: 5
  • Jog the Length of My Condo: 2 times
  • Lunges (no weights): 12
  • Squats (no weights): 10
  • Calf raises (no weights): 20
  • Walk outside: 0 minutes

Day 2 will seek to improve upon this, even if it is just one more pushup.

More Health Realizations

I’m gaining insight about my body as I do this major detox and cleansing. This is my 3rd day now. I’ve taken a truck load of supplements, vitamins, and eaten a TON of vegetables. I still take prescription medication when I need to, though I hope to one day be done with it. Here’s some of my realizations:

  • My blood pressure goes way up after I eat a meal or take a hot shower/bath. By 20 points (from 131/80 to about 152/92 after I ate a big meal tonight, and has lasted a couple hours – still feeling the effect even as I write this article)
  • My blood pressure goes up when I feel pressure to perform in all aspects of life
  • Solid uninterrupted sleep and getting enough food are super important for health
  • Blending the best of modern medicine and the natural world is what I need right now
  • Going on a walk to get some exercise and getting some sun helped my morale

Last night before bed, I took a Lorazapam. It’s a prescription medicine. I took 1 mg – a small dose. It helped me sleep 9 hours straight. I NEEDED that sleep desperately. Right now, when I have nothing in me, I sleep a few hours and wake up at 2:00 AM constantly. I am hoping to get back to a natural sleep of 8 to 9 hours. Getting good sleep is a high priority for me. Here’s a few things I am doing:

  • Lowering the temperature in my condo to 72 degrees farenheit. I’ve read that cooler temperature helps with sleep. I’m testing that theory out
  • Take a prescription medicine if I am feeling particularly jittery or restless
  • Meditate at 9:30 PM and begin to relax and calm my mind
  • Play a little bit of The Witcher 3 from 9:00 PM to 9:30 PM. This helps take me into another world and live through another character. I love doing that
  • While I get ready for bed, give thanks and gratitude for all I have. Send prayers and healing to those who are struggling in life
  • Take a walk outside every day – at work, I walked around for 20 minutes. It felt great to do so

As far as eating goes, I take a prescription med only when I am starting to feel nauseous. If I don’t feel nauseous, I don’t take any medicine and just eat normal meals. I am also prepping my meals the night before and I just take a couple things of Tupperware to work.

I am consuming mostly vegetables right now, and some lean meats. I had some delicious smoked salmon tonight. Damn it was really good! I also had some brown rice and a nutrition shake with supplements (like Vitamins and Fiber). Ultimately, I believe food can give me all the nutrition I need, but I am clearly deficient right now.

This is my current progress on my health. I will report more as time goes on.

The Complexity of Staying Alive

As I continue on my journey trying to reclaim my health, I’m experiencing the challenge of simply existing – that is to wake up, walk around, eat, drink, go to work, come home, and go back to bed. These are very basic parts of life and yet right now, those simple tasks and staying alive each day are incredibly difficult.

I’m doing a major detox right now with many natural supplements (like Vitamin D), green salads with cucumbers and red/green leaf salad, taking a nutritional shake, and trying to get as healthy food as possible into my body. Right now, eating is difficult unless I take an anti-nausea medication.

I’ve realized the importance of sleep and getting enough food. This morning while I was being looked at at my doctor’s office, my blood pressure was exceptionally high: 150/102. I hardly slept last night and have felt nauseous, being unable to keep food down. Finally, after coming back home, I forced myself to eat, drink, and had about an hour of the most intense pressure in my body while I digested that food…

I should get the results back this week of my upper GI scope and biopsy, but I have a feeling this journey of reclaiming my health has only just begun. My heart is very fatigued right now and that also has to be addressed.

I’m giving it my best and let the chips fall where they may as I do that.

Continuing To Understand My Body

It’s been a few days of detoxing and I don’t think I have scratched the surface yet. I bought a program of detoxing including a bunch of herbal supplements and I’m going to start it Sunday morning. It includes a 70% veggie, 20% lean met (fish/chicken), and 10% other (rice/lentels, etc…) which will further clean my system out. I’ll continue to log what I eat.

I’ve got a lot to heal from… And it’s going to be much harder to keep my body in tip top shape after all it has been through, including my spinal fusion. I may have a neck surgery coming too, and so I must get my eating and diet, along with my mental state, in tip top shape.

I also went to a gastroenterologist and had an upper GI tract scope and biopsy done. There’s some inflammation, small hernias, and irritation of my small intestine. This explains a lot of my discomfort in my abdominal region. I’m hoping that my diet changes will help combat this, but there’s also a chance I will need an antibiotic if I’ve got an H Pylori infection. I will get the results back probably next week.

Lastly, I’m hoping my fatigue is due to my digestion problems. My heart will beat really fast if I take even a couple flights of stairs. I’m having to pace myself as I walk and in everything I do. Every movement is precious.

Still, I’ve got two amazing daughters and I see their pictures on my monitor at work every day. Every time it gets hard, I look at their pictures and smile. They help give me the strength to carry on. I sure love them :)