One of the things I’ve prepared myself for doing this summer is moving out on my own. It’s something Heidi and I have talked about for a while now and now I will actually be doing it in the next week or so. I found a little apartment near where I work and will move my stuff in at that time.
Why Move Out?
Most people who see Heidi and I know that we get along well and have a good relationship. To explain the moving out, it’s completely my decision which Heidi and I have talked about for many months this year. I’m grateful to her that she is supportive and reasonable with me as I make this decision.
What I’ve found, is that for a while now, I’ve had this hole or this strong feeling in my gut telling me that Heidi and I’s relationship has run its course for this life. Is this true? I think I need to get out on my own and realize it for myself.
It’s very scary because we do get along so well. Why should I even do this? These are good questions I ask myself, but the strong feeling remains in me. I need to get out on my own and it’s quite possible that this will lead to my decision to split up from Heidi.
Time To Reflect Alone
Like any big decision, you don’t want to rush into it. Moving out is the way of giving me space alone to really experience what life will be like if I’m really on my own and split up from Heidi. It will let me feel the financial hit, the seeing my kids every other weekend, all the things that come with this package deal.
Mostly, it will give me time to feel what it is like to be on my own and if this is truly the right course of action. I’ll be responsible for everything while moved out and it is a little scary. But I believe in following truth, love, and courage, and as I do this. I don’t know what the future will hold.
Maintain Peace and Love
One of my mantra’s for my situation with Heidi this year has been to keep a high level of respect, love, and care with her and my two daughters. This is not something I wanted to just do immediately, but work through it this year until I felt the time was right. I’ll continue to remain in contact with them.
I care about my family. What I’ve found is that life is not meant to be lived in fear or denying your true self of what you want. In my case, it’s a really hard choice, but in the end, my gut tells me that this is what I need to do, so I am actually doing it. It’s probably one of the hardest decisions I’ve ever made.
Wishing you the best my friend, whoever you are. I’m sure there are tough decisions you have had to make in your life too.
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